I want to be the Savior.

Something that has been pressing on my heart for a long time is this temptation to try to end all the most heinous crimes against humanity. Now. Right now.

I'm not saying that I shouldn't want these terrible things to be ended. But the temptation I have faced as of late is fighting to urge to believe that I, in my own strength, am somehow capable of making that happen. 

How I, without the help and input of my God, can put an abrupt end to the atrocity of the Human Sex Slave industry that we are fighting.

How I, without the prayers and groanings of my soul and of the Holy Spirit on my behalf, can convince the world that, "No, it is NEVER okay to murder your child. Within the womb or without. Never, for any reason, is abortion justified." 

How I, without Christ's bearing all the weight of sin and shame, can do ANYTHING to make this world even one breath better. 

I am my own idol. 

I want to save the world. 

I want to be the Savior. 

But I can't. I could never. I'm not strong enough. And when given the chance to take a breath and really think on it, I don't want to be my own Savior. Or yours. I am so broken. I am so sinful. I am nothing without Christ's redeeming work in my life. 

And neither are you. 

God is so good and so kind to us that He made a way for us to once again have Eden. To once again walk with Him. To once again be able to come to Him and receive abounding love and mercy. 

I want sex trafficking to be snuffed out. Now. 

I want abortion to be seen by all, with clarity, for the Holocaust that it is. Now. 

I want marriages to be holy representations of Christ and His steadfast, devoted love for His Church. Now. 

I want all children to be safe and secure in their parent's love. Now. 

I want pornography to be banned and condemned. Now. 

I don't want to wait for God's timing in these things. I somehow think that I know better. I would end all these wicked acts today if I could. But I cannot. 

I don't want to wait a little while longer so that the world, individuals, can come to a place of understanding and repentance for the murders that we have allowed to happen on our watch. 

I don't want to wait while more children, precious babies with inherent value, are sacrificed on the altar of a woman's right to choose. On the bogus claim that this is somehow women's healthcare. 

It makes my heart ache to think of any mother being able to lay down the life of her child in this way. It has always been this way for me, but after having two children of my own, it is an unbearable thought. 

But God. 

He is the one who changes hearts.

He is the one who is doing a good work in so many doctors and abortionists hearts. 

He is the one who brings the darkness to the light. 

He is the one who is already doing just that. 

He is the one who brings redemption and wholeness to the ugliest sins. 

He is the one who is strong enough to heal the hearts of women who have given up their children from fear or pain or force or selfishness. 

He is the one who can change the hearts of pimps who use and abuse the women under their "care."

He is the one who can find the most broken, scared, wretched sinner and call him into His family. 

He is the one. 

Not me. 

And praying is not the least I can do. It is the most tremendous thing I can do to end these crimes. Because God answers the prayers of His children.

He is faithful. He will surely do it.