In want

I have realized that by being at Ozark Christian College, my desire to get married has been amplified. Why? Maybe because Ozark really is a college where it seems like half of the students are married or engaged or about to be engaged. I know I didn't come here to get my MRS. degree like so many say, but it's hard to not have the topic of marriage constantly on your mind when it is all around you. I know that God has put the desire for marriage deep in the hearts of his people from the beginning of time, I just never assumed that it would come about this way. And I know what you are thinking, NO I am not looking for a husband here on campus. Sick! But it is funny to watch all the freshmen boys and girls give hints that they like each other. It's not so much different from high school after all. Everyone is oblivious to the fact that this whole marriage thing might be consuming more of their time than is healthy. Even the girls in my group talk a lot about it, but we have discussed that talking in moderation and keeping God the focus is the key. God will do his will, in his time, with his people. Why does it seem like all of a sudden that marriage isn't such a farfetched idea? In high school, I felt like I was SO FAR away from even finding a husband, and then I get here and all of a sudden this want to get married kicks in. It's kinda weird. But I know that this is an area of my life that I will have to give to God just like so many other things. God is in control, and I am not (as much as I would sometimes like to be). And in his precious time, the day will come about, but until then I will wait. I will wait for months, for years, and even for decades if that so is God's plan (As much as I would not prefer the last one). Want does not equal need, and right now I need to place my feet, focus my eyes, and get comfortable because the road ahead is about to start flying by. In everything, I need to remember who is in charge and have faith that he knows what he's doing. He always does.

Beautiful, Fast, And Fleeting

Words that describe our life here on this earth. As I lay here on my dorm room bed, trying to go to sleep I was thinking and praying. And as I prayed, I thanked the Lord for specific people. "Thank you, God, for Fallon, who is the light of my heart. Thank you for my mom who has loved me through everything. And thank you for Adam, who's been a rock in my waterfall of emotion." And as I prayed that, I thought about waterfalls. And how our life is very similar to a waterfall. From a distance it is beautiful. One of the most glorious things that the eyes can see. It is full of color and life and serenity. When you approach the edge, things can get a bit scary and loud. There's so much noise, so many distractions, and one wrong placing of your foot could cause you to fall right off the edge. And when you get caught in the rapids, it's really hard to make your way back to the safe, happy place. And it can be scary losing your footing and flowing downstream. But God brings people who are our "rocks in the waterfall" into our lives. They are the ones who stick around, the ones who love you even when you've lost your way, even when you've gone downstream with no signs of stopping, even when you're broken, and scared and trying to pretend that everything is alright. They are there. God is our rock, but He also knows that we need people too, so He brings us people who will stick around and love us. Who let us yell at them to let off steam, who just hug us tight when we cry into their once clean shirts, and who make us laugh the most obnoxious and often ugly laughs that there ever was. He knows that although He is here to love us and spend time with us, that we need companionship. We need the support of the people around us. We need love. And He is a good God. He gives us wht we need. So, even when the waters get choppy, we have those people that just won't let us go. They can become our connection to God when we feel that He's far from us. They can show us that EVEN when everything is going wrong, God is STILL GOOD. And He always will be. Thank goodness, because we surely can't love like He does. Our time here on earth is just that, a time, and it's fleeting, but we can make a difference here. We can be the change that we wish to see in this world. Waterfalls are constantly changing the rock and the shorts that they encounter. Moving, molding, and wearing the rocks. Remember the waterfalls, and be a waterfall for Christ.